home for the post-holidays

starting my new job here in vegas has been incredibly amazing, but has also come with some difficulties. i am a front desk agent and i’ve been loving it… it was super nice to put in a lot of hours once school was out for winter break. i would work, and then come back to my apartment and sheridan and i would hang out and watch movies or just spend time talking! then, everyone started going home for the holidays so i was left in our apartment all by myself.

at first, it was great! you can play music as loud as you want and watch movies until the wee hours of the night in the living room. it was kind of like home alone without the burglars. but then suddenly, it became monotonous and sad. i started to realize that i was home alone in las vegas. granted i have so many friends and support here in vegas, but i kind of got in a routine of sleeping in (i work graveyard shifts), watching movies, getting ready, going to work, sleep, repeat. it felt a bit isolating after a while. i’ve been working such odd hours of the nights, so it was hard to me to even meet up with friends. luckily, i was able to see my people here and there, but still it was hard.

what really sucked, was working on christmas day. the whole holiday didn’t seem right. it honestly didn’t even feel like christmas, just a weird regular day. it was strange to think that for the first time in my entire life, i was going to wake up on christmas morning by myself, no presents or yummy breakfast, and no family. that was incredibly hard. i facetimed my family thinking it would cheer me up, when really that just made it worse. needless to say, this christmas sucked. new years rolled around and i found myself at work again. it really wasn’t a bad holiday, just again, it was weird. nothing about this season seemed christmas-y or had that spirit that makes you happy. it made me really sad.

luckily, i was able to go home shortly after the holidays, and spend some time with family. we had a delayed christmas with everyone, i got to hang out with my parents and family, and celebrate bonna’s (my best friends) 21st birthday, so overall it was a good and very needed visit home!

the holidays looked a little different this year, but i had my amazing people surrounding me with love and support, and i’m so thankful for that. spending this holiday season away from everyone made me realize just how much i need them close by. so, with that being said, if youre with family, a loved one, or someone you care for, tell them that youre thankful you get to spend some time with them. i think all of us have to go through a weird holiday season to really appreciate the people around you even more than you did before.

thanks for letting me gab.

x,

gab