uncharted territory

did any of you feel like you were *this* close to getting your life together before all of this happened? because i sure did. i’m not kidding, it really just felt like i was about to get my life on track. i guess that’s how it works. i mean, i had a great job that i absolutely loved, i was finishing school, spending time with my people, and just living my best life. then overnight, the bright lights of the strip turned off just like everything else in vegas.

i found myself a week later in my childhood home sleeping in the same sheets that i had in high school and it just didn’t feel right. i was just so upset that the life that i was living had so suddenly came to a halt. and then the fear of the aftermath of this pandemic set in.

some backstory: so i had an offer to move back to denver after graduation that was an incredible opportunity. however, i wanted to look for options here in vegas because i don’t feel like my time is finished there yet, ya know? so fast forward to like a week ago and i got some news regarding my offer with denver. and when i tell you that it hurt, it HURT. i felt as though i lost my footing in something i thought was so stable. i sat confused thinking, “what am i going to do now?” it felt as though every option i thought i had had quickly vanished.

it’s so hard to navigate through this time because this is uncharted territory, for everyone. i keep trying to remind myself that maybe God is just redesigning my path for something greater, different. but i can’t help but feel upset that everything feels uncertain. it would just be so nice of Him to be like, “hi gab, i know you’re kinda freakin out but it’s ok girl, look what i have in store for you, this is what you gotta do!” i would be like OK GOD! i’ll do it!

now i guess i have to do something that should be easy and natural, but is hard for me: to just have faith in God that He will make everything right. so if you feel like life just made a hard detour on a route you didn’t ask for, know that i’m right there with ya.

this quote has helped me through this time, i hope it helps you:

never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God.

Corrie Ten Boom

x,

gab